As a newish believer, I often wish the life as a Christian came with a detailed step by step instruction book. It is confusing, it is overwhelming and at times, frustrating. As I am sitting in my living room reflecting on 2020, I heard God telling me to start writing a blog about it. To help other new believers in any way possible by sharing my struggles along with my successes and experience.
But before I get into it. Here's a bit about myself. I am a 37 year old married woman. 2 step sons and 3 dogs. I grew up going to a catholic church but quickly lost my Faith as a young adult.
Fast forward to 2020 - I was a lost sheep who was found by her Shepherd on May 4. One of the best days of my life! In the middle of a worldwide crisis, I found myself getting depressed and anxious about many things. I was fearing for my future. A little while ago, a coworker of mine gave me a frame where it reads "Worry end where Faith begin". I now work from home and that frame is sitting above my computer desk on the wall. At that moment I felt at my lowest. I looked at the frame and asked God for a sign. The very next day, a handwritten letter was waiting in my mailbox for me. I opened it and it was about God! I couldn't believe it! I asked God for a sign and there it was... sitting in my mail box the very next morning. The kind lady left an email address so I ended up emailing her. I expected a reply from her right away but it did not come.. BUT.. the next day a friend of mine who I haven't talked to or seen in years reached out to me on Facebook. She told me that she woke up that morning and I was on her mind. She had a message from God. He wanted me to be reminded that He loves me so much. That my friend, it did something to me. At that moment, I knew there was a God. I could no longer deny it. I broke down in tears. I hid this from my husband for a few days because I did not know how he would react to it. I remember him and I talking before and we would say stuff like "If God is so great, why so many innocent children are suffering?" I did find the courage to tell him only to find out he had his own awakening happening. That he had been praying to God. Praise the Lord!
I will end this post by telling you that the walk with God is not easy. Life as a Christian is not easy. To learn, obey and follow God is not easy. But finding out your purpose in this world and knowing that God loves his children so much makes it all worth it.
I hope you enjoyed this post. I look forward to help, motivate, encourage and perhaps maybe inspire you with your walk with God.